Thursday, November 10, 2011

Don't Pity Party....

Ok some of you might have seen my post on FB that I want to have a pity party... I really do put decided against it after about the 10th time I cried. Lee told me to go to Heavenly Father in prayer... did that no answer yet...

Here is why...yet again I'm having pergancy symptoms but its not for me because I tested and nope only one line! So as my body likes to be over sensitive to others being pregnant I guess in time it will go away!!! I have come to my own conclusion that even though Heavenly Father gave me the answer of 3 children that maybe the one I miscarried is supposed to be the one that waits for me in heaven. Bringing me to the total of 3...while I'm not happy about this if that's what he has planned for my family so be it...who am I to question it?

Reason 2...the house we moved from the guy that owns it...that sold it with in a few days of us giving him the keys...wants $32,000 for the remainder of the balance so we are fighting it out with a lawyer and praying things go our way. I honestly think the guy thinks we have more than we do...just because my in laws have money does not mean I have money. I live pay check to pay check...

Reason 3...because I live pay check to pay check we are slowly falling into a hole...I can't pay the bills by myself and if Lee works we spend even more in daycare costs...so its not worth him working. I could pick up a second job but I'm worn out from my 1st job I'm not sure I could handle another job even if it was just one day a week.

So thats my pity party...but I've decided not to have it and just do as my husband says pray and the Lord we provide an answer...

2 comments:

Shanna said...

Well, I love you! And the lord loves you. And it can be good to seek the wisdom and inspiration from a bishop (so long as he is a good one). And Lee is right. Keep the prayers going but not of what you want but what the lord wants.

Sailor Mom said...

I hope you get more insight and answers to your prayers. I totally understand where you're coming from- minus the house thing. (hug)